Friday, January 1, 2010

A Reflection on the last 25 years

This year of 2010 will mark 25 years in full time ministry service for me. That's more than half my life. From 1985-2009!!! With the exception of one year (1991), it has been continuously serving the Lord first as a youth worker, then youth pastor, followed by a technical specialist.
Serving with fringe youth, secondary school students, in performing arts and support ministries.

As I reflect on this past, I wonder to myself: "What have I accomplished? What do I have to show for all this?" What have been my successes so far?

It seems that all I manage to accomplish (by the "normal" standards) is nothing:
  • There was a young man I led to Christ. He went full-time. I don't know where he is now.
  • There was smallband of youth in the performing arts. Don't know where they are now. Just know one of the girls is a teacher and with the GB.
  • There were two Thai girls who came to the Lord through an English camp I was involved with in Thailand.One was a daughter of an govt official then and the other from a working class family. I don't know where they are now.
  • There are the youth from my Sunday School. 
All small things nothing major or earth shaking. One would think that after 25 years of full-time ministry, I would be heading some organisation or something. Yet it is not so. I guess it a choice I made: "sweating" the small stuff. Not doing anything "big" but focusing on small groups and individuals. Hey it's not that I didn't or don't think "BIG" but rather that inside of me (and sometimes forgotten) I believe in "going BIG in a small way."

Sometimes I feel I have accomplished nothing. One day, someday, maybe all the small things will crawl out of the woodwork and the multitude of them will amaze me.

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